Soul Symphony

Do you feel that you don’t deserve lasting love and that your partner will inevitably leave you? Do you stay at home, afraid to venture out and meet new people because you don’t feel you have enough to offer? Do you feel overweight, boring, stupid, guilty, or ugly? Standard questions…  Here I ask you.  Do you inevitably feel the need be validated by your partner time and again? Do you feel the sudden sprang of jealousy or anxiousness when your partner mentions an opposite sex and his/fondness towards that person? No matter how much you convince yourself that you truly trust your partner but such feelings really cloud all your sanity, and the next thing you know is that you are frantically obsessing over that person. Now while many might say : "This is completely insane. I don’t feel any such thing." I say, let’s ponder a little more. Insecurities: We’ve all got a few.  Speaking of myself: I DO!    I used to feel embarrassed of this, but ...

Block Block Everywhere!  We millennials are so you used to practice this art of stalling that sometimes it gets beneficial for us, other times; well it’s just a way of us escaping the truth. We avoid many sensitive situations or unwanted explanations by practicing this wonderful art of blocking people or avoiding situations, virtually or in reality. Then there is another block which is not really a good one!  The writer’s block!!  Yes, I did call myself a writer, well at least I believe so and strive to be one. And having a block for months is intolerable and unpleasing to the least. How Does it feel like? Staring right at the screen, trying to form a logical sequence of some random thoughts coming in your mind.  But you just couldn’t get hold of it.  Every sentence typed is back spaced until your eyes are bloodshot, hair’s a mess and your will power diminished. That stonewalled feeling, where there is an acute numbness is w...

Hey there, been a while that I could write something, writer's block maybe ...Or maybe just lazying around trying to write an article that makes me look super cool . So today I finally gave in, and wrote what abstractly came into my mind. Maybe it won't be perfectly framed, but I am sure while reading it you can resonate with my thinking . Yes coming back to my thoughts on this saying,  : "Actions speak louder than words" Well have heard this proverb since childhood. But does this really hold true for our age? The way I see it I am not really sure . Millennials ideally have lost the patience to stop and build relationships at face value. As the generation that grew up with communication becoming  via a digital revolution, our biggest strength of being connected has also became our biggest weakness. We can easily write down wonderful words on timelines, but fail to sincerely compliment our friends in person.  We literally are growing up ...

Are yaar tu kitna sochti hai …. Familiar line right? I have been a receiver of this line like a zillion times. Well yes, sometimes we do happen to screw up our peace of mind by just sulking over a certain situation and then presuming outcome or regretting that we could have done it some other way.    In both the situations --it’s futile! Neither we can time travel and change things nor can we predict any outcome by our thoughts alone. There is no good in over thinking . Well true, and as individuals we all realize this too. But can we really stop ourselves from ruminating? Honestly, that would hold a No for me. If I have to spill a secret here, I’d say there was a time when I was engrossed in the vicious cycle of ruminating or over thinking as the people around me were calling it. I had zoned out , started losing out on the people around me for some vivid situations in my head, my relationships were getting affected, my mood used to be for a swing always: High...

It’s that time of the year again. Well that time, when your Facebook is filled with the lovely marriage and honeymoon pictures of your friends. It’s really vibrant, a culmination of the shades of reds and pinks and a bountiful of “awwwww’s”, under the pictures. This has become more so as the years go by, as you realize people you once played house-house ( desi kids playing ghar ghar in the 90’s ) are actually settling down in their own Ghar’s. While you may feel happy, sulk or just unworthy of your lonely single confused self, you also secretly take learnings for your wedding, which probably might not happen anytime soon. But still, what’s the harm in dreaming anyways!! Well some like me, start analyzing their life. Finishing more than a quarter of life, it’s hard to believe how many times we thought of a “forever” with someone, and now that person’s face probably is as vague as your kinder garden memories. And if you are not that lucky, maybe you still remember him, fondly or f...

Well hello there, hope you all are doing great and enjoying the lovely heat wave around. Work had kept me on my toes, and it really blocked me from collating my thoughts and writing it down. Was a power packed stressful tenure.  Amidst all this hustle one day while sipping my tea, on a hot Sunday afternoon, I couldn’t help but deliberate as to “ Why ” or rather “ What ” am I stressing over? T he thing is the quarter life crisis is something we all are very familiar with, some of our peers are getting married, some getting into their dream jobs, some pursuing masters, double masters or doctorates and we??? Well for me I just scroll Facebook and sulk at their achievement. More than sulking at their achievement, it is this empty unaccomplished feeling that kills me. It fells that I am  just wasting on this life. ( Not really , but you know   Grass always seems greener on the other side ). Then I think more and realize how time has changed.  ...